Well, I have been so shit throughout the whole of June, although I knew it would be hard, being on holiday, I wasn’t expecting this.
I have not done well. Not at all.
I saw some pictures of me the other day, on the first day of school 2011, the beginning of Year 10, and I literally cannot believe how fat I was, it must have been at literally my fattest weight. I suppose in one way it’s nice to see how far I’ve come, but in another way, nobody told me I was fat, I didn’t realise I was thst faat, what if the same thing is happening right now. At the moment that’s something I’m pretty worried about, what if people think I’m horribly massive, but nobody’s telling me? I cannot have people thinking that about me.
I want to look amazing by the start of next year, so I can feel amazing about what I’ve achieved within 2 years.
I also have gained a lot of weight, since starting the holidays, when the plan was to lose weight, that’s not so good. I’ve actually gained so much that my Prom dress barely zips up, I now need someone to zip it while I suck in massively. That’s shit. I can’t believe I’ve done this to myself.
On the plus size, one of my friend’s mums was making a joke about how weak I am, and she said “You’re just an 8 stone weakling” To which I physically laughed, because I’m nearly 10 stone. (I’m actually like 25lbs heavier than she thought.) I wish I was closer to that, but 8stn is literally lower than my ugw. My ugw feels a million miles away right now though, FML.
Well, that’s it I suppose, for now. I’ll report back, and let you all know how my June Goals actually went, and set myself some “Summer Goals”.
Well, I love crisps, and I also love chocolate, especially when I’m in the mood for it. I absolutely love ice cream though. I love fries, and burgers and stuff too. And toast, especially with butter. I also love ready meals like sausage and mash, or lasagne. To be honest there isn’t much which I don’t like! X